I admit I felt anger with Frank about his sudden death. In some part of my heart I felt abandoned, left out. It wasn’t something we were able to talk about really – though he mentioned it on the six month anniversary of his death. Jan, you are still in my mind and heart and I am there with you often. Remember the night before I left you – 6 months ago now. I knew I...
Read MoreI am reaching out to you a lot lately, Jan – and knowing that the anniversary is coming up. You are surrounded by memory and feelings of being so alone now. We were together so much in life – talking, being, listening, loving. I left so suddenly and know it was so difficult for you. For me it was also difficult but in a new way. It was hard to leave you and to be...
Read MoreDearest Jan, and you are still so very dear to me – so close to me when we spend moments together like now. You ask about what it is like for me here. Try to imagine what it would feel like to you to be perfectly understood, accepted and loved – all the time. Here I am surrounded by peace and understanding. There are others here – but we are not in communication...
Read MoreSo many want to hear what you are writing – they want hope and to be free from all the misery, the pain and the pressures in their lives. They want to know that there is peace ahead for their souls. They want to know that their souls will survive beyond death and they want to move on in joy and expectation – not fear and worry. You know this is true. What I can do...
Read MoreWoke from sleeping all day with a flu virus. The sky was bright deep gold. I felt Frank. Sometimes life feels so far removed from death. They feel separate. They feel as though once you know life, you cannot know death until you are finished with life. Yet, they are so very close and the veil is probably the best metaphor. I am right there with you when you think of...
Read MoreSome very loud motorcycles drove up my road and woke me. They felt ominous. The dogs didn’t even bark. We just stayed quiet. I thought of Frank and asked for some help. The path you are walking on now is a wondrous one and only traveled lightly when you are able to be in earth time as well as soul time. Sometimes you feel like you are going through death. But it is...
Read MoreI found it difficult to keep myself focused on the bigger picture. One night I woke with a headache. Breathe deeply and know that everything that is happening as you can see it is just as it is needing to be in this moment, at this time on earth. You already know this, but when you see something that is deeply troubling or disappointing, again you lose your hope,...
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