1:01 a.m., October 14, 2014
Because of my love for animals – all animals, I so hoped that Frank could reassure me about my animals, both living and dead. Barely six months after Frank passed, animals came up in a conversation, late in the night.
Rainy night – October being our rainiest month in Costa Rica. I found myself worrying about various life things as the rain continued to pound the roof. Just outside my three parrots were asleep in on the branches in their aviary. I wondered if they were warm enough, dry enough under the tin roof cover. My thoughts tumbled into the arena of fear as I drifted back to sleep once more.
1:01 a.m., October 14, 2014
I opened my eyes and felt the familiar wide wakefulness and I glanced at the lighted digital numbers to verify Frank’s presence. 1:01. Yes – it was a Frank call.
The words came…
Life is unsure, Jan. how can we be sure of anything at any time when everything around us changes constantly?. It is so true that nothing stays the same, and we must try to hold on in the midst of constant change – not holding on to what it was a minute ago, but what it is in this minute. You are afraid. Fear of not having enough is creeping back into your heart and mind. You do have enough always.
Sage suddenly interrupted me from the window adjacent to my darkened office. I heard a soft tapping and turned to see Sage, almost ghostlike because it was so dark. He was perched where I never see him – just at the low window – that connects my office to the outdoor aviary. He must have been clinging to a bit of the window framing. I’d only seen him near this window, on the adjacent screen when he can fly there during the day. Never in the night. How did he get there and why? I got up, turned on the aviary lights and went out to check in the dark. Beak was perched high on a wood perch and Sage came to me easily, more easily than ever. He seemed fearful and I wondered if something was inside the aviary scaring him. He definitely wanted to be with me and it was easy to caress him. All seemed well so I returned to the house and the computer, turned off the lights and waited again to speak with Frank.
The words began again…
Sage was there to reassure you. You were not making him safe. He was there making you safe.
There are times when I can only show you love in your life through your animals. Sage showed you how much he loves you and trusts you tonight. Allow him to express and love and know that the mysteries are always there, just outside our knowing. They seem to be not real. They are very Real.
I come to you often within Frida – who also loves you so very much. She is especially close to me now because animals can really feel spirits and accept them without doubt. Seurat too. I still have Flash and Livvie and Adora with me here – and others. You are so very right when you say that it is the animals who are the teachers.
