12:00 a.m., March 30, 2016

After a week long Watercolor Intensive with a family of four I was very tired. I slept for almost 20 hours after they left. It was a really good time that we had though the weather is now unbearably hot here with El Nino. The plants are suffering so. I’m hopeful that the Green season rains will come soon.

Dearest Jan – it has been awhile since we talked together privately, though I have been with you so many times. Many I know you noticed – as I came as the Golden Hooded Tanager or the yellow butterfly. I am so pleased that you recognize my thoughts, my presence still in your life. I am not ever gone from you – and our love remains always. I too yearn for the talks we used to enjoy on the deck and all our political musings as well as the meaning of life and death. Now we see that it is in the little acts of love and giving and caring that make the most impacts in our souls. Jan, please trust that your struggles against those who would harm you are merely meant to show you how to overcome and how to trust – yourself as well as others who hold you. I am with you always – and I can affect many minor moments around you that add up to major changes. I am always with you. I so remember our lovely moments together.

Here I am growing in many new ways – being shown new ways of creation and growth. We are so needed now – to reach deep into the souls of many who are feeling the torments of this time. ‘we work best one by one, soul by soul – and there are so many of us that it is possible to affect much change. It is hardly noticed in the firey Ego surface of earth life – but the small changes matter.

Hold on to that, dear Jan – and stay present in the small acts of love and caring. I am there with you. I love you.